"In order to succeed, your desire for success should be greater than your fear of failure."

I love that quote. I try to read it almost every day. it's a little reminder that my desire needs to be nurtured in some way, so little by little, I can continue to drown out those pesky fears that creep up all too often.

being involved in competitive Irish dancing really challenges you in ways that I think that only a small percentage of people experience. I battle my own well of negativity that springs up, trying to hold me back on a regular basis and I think the relentless persistence through the countless hours of practice and the facing of fears that competition requires, refines who I am as a person, not just as a dancer.

I didn't get those coveted firsts at the KC feis but I really had a great experience. I finally felt aggressive in my slip jig and know I can push myself so much more. I got through my hard shoe without stopping and performed 3 new steps with treble jig and hornpipe even though my stomach was in knots. I worked on holding my chin and just having more fun with it. Of course having fellow dance mates from my school as an amazing support system was the best feeling ever. I couldn't ask for a better school.

Next up:
October 6th - Feis San Antonio. My 1st Prelim. John Carey as judge. Adult diaper firmly in place. aahhhh soooo nervouss

I just have to remember these dances are over so quickly. I put so much effort into practicing them. I put down money to pay for my entry, hotel, gas, etc. It's a solid commitment. But I need to remember to have some fun while I dance too. There's no other place I'd rather be than on that stage, dancing. Why do I get so caught up in being nervous then?

I love to dance. I just need to show it better on stage.