I don't mean that in a negative way either. I just have to dance every competition like it's my last.
I've started asking myself, "would I be satisified with my performace if that had been my last chance to dance?" so far, the answer's always been 'no'.
I hold back. my nerves get the best of me. the movement isn't natural enough yet or aggressive enough or not practiced enough to just flow out of me.
I just have to get used to the repetition of it even if it drives me crazy.
I also have to get it out of my head that I'm only a strong soft shoe dancer. hard shoe is totally my thing because I can MAKE it my thing. I just need to put my heart in to it and not hold back. if I fall, I have to get right back in there.
KC feis, I'm fer ya. and I'm dancing this prelim like it's my last.
