every time I think about being on stage I get this crazy nervous feeling. I think it's mainly because I feel so unprepared. that, I can change.
in other news, last night was the night of nerd dreams.
a) champ class was being held at worlds and we were running through hornpipe on the big stage. I just remember messing up on my first step but I kept going and repeating the right foot until I got it right and then moved on to the left. it was kind of a confidence boost in an odd way--telling me not to worry about messing up in front of everyone but to keep on going, regardless.
b) my great-grandmother had this huge farmhouse in my dream, with all wood floors. my g'ma was letting me & jason rent it out for ridiculously cheap and I had a big huge room as a dance studio.
AND C) I was at awards for my champ comp and they were calling up all the placements until 2nd place and my name didn't get called so I was pretty sure I got dead last at that point. then they announced my name as the unthinkable first. my knees were all shaky and I felt like I was going to slip right off the podium stepping up to the top.
it was all weirdly encouraging and vivid.
can you tell what I went to sleep thinking about?
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